it's me again.. haven't updated for aeons of months.. actually it's not that long.. maybe only 2 months.. work has been hell.. it really is.. this semester is really the most jialat it can ever be.. but so what?? bring it on.. it's the last semester already!! a bit more and it's graduation then i'm bound to miss school when i get my ass out in the work industry.
well, sometimes i don't know if i am too sensitive, read too much into things or whatsoever. actually it's just me. i am super curious, kaypoh and maybe poke my nose into too many stuffs. but when i see something unfair or wrongdoing being committed, it's like a big piece of thorn in my flesh.. i need to remove it or do something and make me feel better.
i know i am too straightforward and i sometimes don't give face but this is how i am. pardon me for my straightforwardness. i will say how i really feel and think if i feel things should not be the way it should. i admit i have offended a couple of people in school since poly til even now. but i do that for a reason. i saw grievance, unjust, unfairness, shortchanges and that's when i do something about it. i don't go out to confront and beat the shit outta the person because that's too barbaric.. talk things out through when problems arise and use force only if somebody beats you up first. =)
so there i go and do my peaceful protest and write my rants to show my protest. at least i dare to let people see how i feel and don't go around bitching behind people's backs. cutting corners and injuring people's backs is so uncool and not my style.
well, most of the time it might just be misunderstandings and i read too much into things but i'm sure something is really wrong there, isn't it? if everything is fine and A-ok, i won't go about doing my little peaceful protests. i just want to set things right and help people see my point of view. i might be wrong sometimes because i might not see the whole picture but i do it to make it a fair and better environment for everybody. just like how me and one of my fellow mortar buddies, peter dared to write down all the wrongdoings of our encik, made it into a report and sent it to the rsm office before we O-R-D-ed.. it really made his balls shrink and he treated our guys better after we left. having met peter was like re-enforcing my 'setting things right' ideology. =)
some people might say that i am biased and 1-sided but i beg to differ. i am quite neutral and i will choose the correct side and set things right. well, that's me and i apologise to all whose tails i have stepped on. there is a risk of awkwardness, losing friends and even making enemies but my straightforwardness is still part of me. i never regretted what i always did because in the end people communicate and things got better. =)
p.s.: i still think honesty is the best policy. =)
