i finally got it off my chest.. though it's not an answer i always wanted but i'm glad i did it.. was a painful experience though.. though it was not the first time i experience this but it was indeed more painful than the previous times.. but i know she had my interests at heart.. she made it kinda less painful as possible.. i don't want things to change but i know it will never be the same again.
i don't know how it turned out like this but it seemed to happen everytime.. maybe it's that i didn't put in any effort, i look like a monster or i just really suck. well, time to get the sleepless nights again.. hope i can bounce back like i used to but don't know how long it'll take this time round though..
in the meantime, i am so lost but life still goes on.
it was as if my armour was stripped in battle.
lost my motivation and fighting spirit.
i don't know how to take my exams.
i really don't know what to do.
