i've finally ORD-ed!! i wanted to actually find a place atop a hill or at a beach that's near a coastal area and scream the 3 fukin letters O-R-D.. alright, this hella 1 year and 10 months seems like a roller coaster ride to me!!
the 1st 3 months bmt was like a prison to me when i walked in steps to my company building.. it was like you are forced to do this and that.. another thing was that you're like the lowest and smallest life form in the military hierachy and not forgetting to mention that we're not even a piece on the chess board in war!! HAHA~~
sispec was like another level of training platform to train us to be commanders.. slightly tougher than bmt but it was fun running around the hills, ambushing people and other stuffs peeps in a section do..
after that, we got our vocation.. alright.. Artillery Institute.. the heaven everybody wanted to go.. more of the lectures and more 'mental training' rather than siong training in the other vocations.. in the end we all pass out as 3rd sergeants and off we go to our units..
off i went to my unit.. it was like, i don't know.. we're motivated to do all we can for the unit.. but as time passes by, we just felt like we're taken for granted.. do right also wrong, do wrong still wrong!! sometimes just feel like shit and not doing anything at all.. then we become the elders, 长老 in the company.. know all the tricks and stuff le.. know when to work and not to work.. haha..
and now, army's not quite an episode that's kinda ended.. it will still haunt you.. we're still eligible for reservist man.. so it's like kinda sianz.. army don't sound that fun, ain't it?? but actually being in the army is kinda fun, seriously!! just that sometimes i just don't like the way it's being run.. i feel the people who run it could have done it better.. and we're screwed by somebody in there somehow or another..
other than all the fun things we do such as using the sophisticated weapons systems and all the outfield stuffs, it had also taught me a lot of things.. such as i didn't know the human limit can be stretched til that much.. didn't know we can endure and carry so many stuff and run here and there without feeling that tired.. also taught me to enjoy and cherish my times outside camp with friends, family, etc.. not forgetting that tiny bit of fighting spirit burning in each and everyone of us that would bring us to greater heights if we were to use it..
and that is also the place we got to know so many brothers in arms.. this is where you get to know true friends.. who'll stand by you when you go through shit together and who'll sit you out.. made quite a couple of good friends, especially my fellow mortarians..
also got to hone my leadership skills la.. learn how to lead the guys.. how to do public speaking and also giving lectures to that many peeps with so many eyes looking at you.. not forgetting finding solutions for every teeny weeny problems that come our way.. it also kinda widens my horizons on how the working world will be like in the future..
in all it seemed to transform me!! i just feel totally different from that me 1 year 10 months back.. felt stronger, faster, better, more confident and much much more.. all that i didn't thought i could do, i can now!! it seems like there are much more things that we all can do, just that we WANT to do or not..
like what our minister mentor, mr lky say to parents.. you give your son to us, a boy.. we'll return him to you, a man after 2 years that is!! kinda cool huh!! sound so spartan!! Hahahaha~
all i can say is that it was once a part of me but now it's kinda gone.. actually i wasn't that of exceptionally happy la.. not that exhilarating but just glad it has ended.. also felt kinda lost la.. loss of i don't know what.. it could be the loss of my 2nd home or maybe some other stuffs..
wanna thank all my sergeants who've trained me and taught me valuable lessons.. the warrant officers in sispec.. they are the most experienced and pro i should say.. officers as well.. and all the fellow peeps that pass through everything with me.. bmt mates, sispec mates, AI mates and fellow mortarians, including my platoon sergeant and mortar officer (who ord alone in september).. and of course that special somebody who helped me tide through difficult times though she was not physically with me.. thanks for the experience and all the best..
it doesn't stop here.. challenges will still continue to be a part of my everyday life..
ps: ntu and nus still haven't reply me!! but maybe massey uni wants a piece of me
