Lion-Heart

this week was just learning about how to use the car if everything broke down.. it was kinda tough doing everything manual but in the end it was easier than i thought.. had the test and all went well except i broke down one of the car's computer system.. i press the wrong button.. =/ but fortunately it was fixed..

my sergeant asked me if i wanted to go to safsa.. a place where i could play rugby for the army.. but i think i not good enough.. because at first i joined to play for fun and the interest.. and not forgetting the brotherhood and everything else that made me a much better peson.. not a national player so i guess i'd better not go.. anyway i promised my mom never to play again though i love the sport because she said it worries her a lot when i come back from trainings and competitions everytime..

i wonder where i'm going.. every of my sirs and sergeants kept asking me if i'm interested to becoming an instructor.. is that a hint that i'm gonna be one?? or they think i have a flair of teaching others?? i guess i'll know in 1 weeks' time..

just 1 more week to becoming a S-E-R-G-E-A-N-T.. haha.. before that there'll be a gruelling outfield in the forests 48 hours around the clock without sleep if the missions were not completed.. so i hope the missions are easy and the whole platoon can do it well!!

enjoy the week and may everyone spend their time fruitfully like i always spent mine.

i Crashed Landed @ 8:13 PM.

this week was kinda fast.. mostly was just lectures and calculations on angles, directions and elevations.. learning how to direct the mortar to the target.. maths, maths, maths.. realised i still kinda love to study.. it's fun and not mentioning teaching others what you knew.. passed my standard obstacle course.. miraculously, i did it at a timing of 9 min 44 sec with my injured ankle.. a 7 second improvement in comparison to the timing at sispec.. fortunately i took the risk and cleared it.. if not i would not be able to go for nights off last thurs and got yh's 21st birthday pressie.. though the machinery inside my foot was grinding and hurting like hell but it was all worthwhile.. now i'm just left with a 3 day 2 night field camp and i'll be able to pass out as a sergeant in 2 weeks' time..

celebrated yh's birthday yesterday and it was great gathering with everyone.. there was lotsa food and not forgetting the cake.. though only a small number of people came but we enjoyed ourselves tremedously.. as usual he got thrown in the pool by the others and i would just sit one side to watch as the neutral party.. if it was a few years back, i might join in the fun but i don't know why.. i just can't be bothered with it.. i guess people change to a certain extent.. everyone's turning 21 this year.. i don't know if there's a special significance to it but i feel it's just another phase of life.. happy birthday to yh once again.. and not forgetting maybeline's 21st today as well.. happy birthday to ya!! a bit sianz cannot go la.. need to book in.. army.. saded..

end of the month is coming.. time to register for university.. i know it'll be hard for me to get in with just my majority of Bs, B+ and a handful of As and distinctions.. but there are many options for me.. food science in nus.. but it seems tough to get in with that little spaces.. or sp's collaboration with germany's tum 2 year's course.. maybe i should take up business as well.. but i don't what to choose.. or maybe i might join the workforce.. or signing on in the army.. NOTz.. ahaha.. that's not even last on my options anyway..

gotta change my suit and live the life of another kind now.. just like spiderman.. sianz.. take care and study well for those whose exams are coming..

i Crashed Landed @ 6:25 PM.

sometimes i just question about my existence here.. i don't seem to have any direction.. no light in sight.. everything seems so bleak.. just feeling kinda bored, sianz and out of place.. come to think of it, it's not that easy to live your life as two persons.. one being the soldier who would be deployed in war when it comes and the other as the peace loving person who wouldn't give a damn bout anything.. maybe i should just travel around the world by foot to see the world.. maybe then i would learn something or gain some enlightenment..

the feeling just sucks.. don't know why i felt like this.. for the past week, it's been kinda toturous to be treated like toy soldiers played around between fingers.. i can't seem to even have peace even when i'm out.. i still see army peeps.. i saw 3 officers, my sergeant, a driver and my platoon mates.. can't even be a civilian in peace for a day..

sprained my ankle during camouflaging of the caterpillar car.. the ankle came off but it didn't quite exactly drop off but the pain was excruciating.. can't even run and even walk properly now.. feeling down and out and it's like for no particular reason.. now i just feel like throwing everything to one side and just disappear for some time and i'll just hide in some small little island where nobody could find me so that i might get some peace.

i Crashed Landed @ 7:19 PM.

this week was indeed a fast week after a long holiday.. as usual.. maintaining the mortar caterpillar car and learn about its system.. other than that nothing much.. kinda have some good news here.. i've been chosen to become an instructor.. well, 8 people were selected but only 3 people will become one after all thsoe selections.. here comes my chance to escape from armour unit.. the mud, sand and the grease.. =/ then i would get to stay at artillery.. =) haha.. but not everyone will get a chance to be one.. because only quite zai people would be chosen to stay back and teach what we've learnt to the next batch.. i said yes! to the offer.. hope i get to stay back..

good news over.. bad news was that i just came back from weekend guard duty.. 24 hours.. sad.. saturday morning to sunday morning.. prowled around the camp 8 times while doing for 2 hours and resting for 4 hours shifts.. quite tiring.. fortunately, the guard commander was my own course sergeant.. haha.. therefore there's only 1 turn out.. phew..

though that's the bad thing about guard duty.. but i realised something.. when you look at some bad things in a different point of view, you'll get to see some good in the bad.. guard duty kinda helped to give more space and time for me and kinda cut myself from the outside world or rather the so called reality.. i would use the time to think through stuffs and reflect on things.. it wasn't that bad after all..

gotta go back to camp now.. sighz.. though it was a short weekend but i'll be back on friday again.. hurhur.. take care everyone and for those people that started school, enjoy !! =))

realised that there are only 2 occasions that i've been thinking of ya..
that's day and night.

i Crashed Landed @ 7:34 PM.

Happy New Year 2007!! phew.. haven been free these few days to account of what happened for the past week.. i was out almost every day to shop, eat, do some sight seeing and meeting up with some pals.. it was a bit tiring from all the sleepless nights but i sure had lotsa fun!! =)

was anticipating for the long holidays at camp last week.. learned how to fire a real machine gun with live bullets.. kinda fun and exciting.. and more lectures and maintaining of the caterpillar car..

when i got to book out on friday.. went clubbin!! it was a blast.. met up with jen, bee and bel with the other boys to zouk.. the mood was great due to the holidays i guess.. danced like a dancing machine non stop but i did stop for some drinks and toilet breaks.. was dancin with the gals til some ah bengs and some weirdos came and disturb.. tried to knock me away but failed.. they went off after a while but they came back after that.. in the end we kinda danced and bumped them off.. haha.. tattos still don't scare me.. butterflies and moths do.. =/ nevertheless, we enjoyed ourselves a lot.. =)

saw quite a number of my friends there as well.. darryl, my tekong hawk friend who's a signals' officer cadet currently, philbert and alex my mortar caterpillar car mates.. glad to see that they are enjoying themselves and are fine and looking great..

reached home about 5 am and went out in the afternoon to meet up with jj, mh, wk, des and jiehong for lunch at kenny rogers.. after that went to watch death note 2.. it's a must watch!! full of intellect, mind games, intriguing story line.. cool..

went to jianming's place for a stayover with the other boys the following day on new year's eve.. ate lots of nonsense and drank vodka while count-downing.. goodbye 2006 and hello 2007!! 2006 had been a great year for me.. lots of ups and downs.. not forgetting the good memories, new things learnt and getting to know more new peeps.. reaaly hope that 2007 would be a greater year ahead!!

after that went to watch dvds.. watched click and cars.. i really love these two shows to the bits.. Click taught us not to be oblivious of the things around us and we must cherish the things qround us.. Cars was a great show that bring back the good memories..

needed to move the ass a little after partying for so many days.. so off we went to play ball in the afternoon today.. finally went home for dinner.. it seems like ages i've had dinner at home.. Family, family , family.. important.. like what the adam sandler character said.. hope everybody had made their new year resolutions and let's all embrace the new year with open minds and open hearts.. =)

If i lay here, If i just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?? - snow patrol

i Crashed Landed @ 10:04 PM.